First post of 2017

I know that, obviously, you’ve all been waiting with baited breath for my first post of 2017… well wait no longer. This is it! (pauses to allow tumbleweed to blow across scene in total silence).

One of the reasons for the delay is simply that there’s not much different going on than at the end of 2016. But, that having been said, let’s lay out what’s ahead for the first months (at least) of 2017.

My current work in progress is The Offspring, the final book in The Szuiltan Trilogy. While sales and response to the first two books has not exactly been overwhelming, I have a story to finish telling so I’m going to tell it! If I was writing to make money, I’d have given up a long time ago. My reasons for writing go far deeper than that.

All drafts of the two novels, Eyes Of The Raven and The Demon Guardian are finished and both are now looking for homes. More news on this as I have it. Keep your fingers (and everything else) crossed.

I have still to make a final decision on whether to self publish The Risen(Book #1 in The Givers Of Life). As it’s a novella I do have that option (see earlier posts and interviews about my children’s despotic ruling on my self publishing activities) but I also keep edging towards the idea of shopping it around. The problem, as I see it, is that, #1, it’s a zombie tale, and there’s a surprising number of publishers (including ones I’ve previously worked with) who won’t even look at anything to do with zombies, and, #2, it’s the first novella in a series that’s not yet written. That’s a lot for a publisher to take on from a small-time author like me.

The situation is similar with Vampire Worms, although as it’s a short story I have put it out there and am currently awaiting a decision. What makes it similar is that, although it is self contained, it certainly has the possibility of being the first in a series. If I do eventually decide to go down that route, and it’s not already been published by that time, I may well look, again, to self publishing for very much the same reasons as with The Risen, although in this case vampires, rather than zombies (they’re not actually vampires as such… you’d need to read the story).

The Offspring marks a return to science fiction, after pretty much a whole year of writing horror. Should I decide to remain in this genre following The Offspring, I do have several ideas with beginnings and basic stories sketched out to choose from. I also have a completed pulp novel, The Frihet Rebellion, to shop around. This was held back almost 18 months by a publisher who, after all that time, decided to reject it, albeit with some positive and nice comments along the way. Now that’s over, I can get on with approaching other publishers and hope to generate some interest. News as it happens, as always.

After releasing the complete novel, A World Of Assassins, for free on Wattpad last year, I will be looking at possibly doing something similar this year. Nothing concrete yet, and I’m partly waiting to see the kind of response A World Of Assassins gets, but it’s a different way of getting some of my older work out there – and possibly newer stuff too. If people enjoy it, they might decide to read more of my work.

In news other than writing – The 1850 Project (the musical collaboration between my son, Jonathan, and myself) remains on hiatus due mainly to recording and financial issues. There’s also an issue with increasing arthritis in my fingers, making prolonged playing of the guitar stupidly painful. Nevertheless, we have songs, we have ideas, and we will return! Talking of songs, I have a large back catalogue of poorly recorded stuff which I would really like to cherry pick from and re-record in good quality, before I’m unable to play anymore. We already have demos of some of the those, and they could be released either under The 1850 Project or as solo projects – that depends on whether Jonathan likes them or not!

After returning to painting at the end of 2016, I am working on a second picture. I’m not rushing these, there’s no need, and tend to do painting in small bursts as a way of relaxing from other things, but I intend to continue precisely because I do find it relaxing and, other than Cathy constantly telling me how she would do it, no pressure.

My real job, of course, is looking after my daughter (whose myriad of conditions and issues are not for this post) but I still have time for creative pursuits – and both things are equally satisfying, in different ways. Both can also lead to serious lack of sleep.

So, that’s it. Hopefully there will be plenty of writing, music and painting ahead for me. Most of all, however, I hope my daughter gets the therapy she needs (we’ve been waiting a long time) and that she improves to the point where she can have a life outside of the safe zone of her bedroom.

Whatever else happens (and despite horrors such as Trump, Brexit, and more Conservative destruction of our society) it has to be better than 2016, doesn’t it? Come on 2017, surely you can manage that!

2016 – Not The Best Of Years

So, 2106 is coming to an end – and good riddance too. It has not been a great year for all sorts of reasons. For a start, we lost a lot of great performers across the arts – people like Victoria Wood, Terry Wogan, Alan Rickman, David Bowie, Gene Wilder, Greg Lake, Prince and too many others. Hollywood continues to grind out the retreads and remakes (although Deadpool was good). In politics we had the twin disasters of Brexit and Donald Trump. Far too many wars and acts of terrorism continue to plague the world in general. Religion and political ideology continue to be used as justification for hate, prejudice and bigotry. I could go on (really, I could!), but enough is enough.

Not everything was bad. There was some great music released (including albums from Dream Theater, Babymetal, Ana Popovic, Roxette, The Monkeys, Epica and Green Day), small publishers continued to release the books that the traditional publishers are too afraid to, there were a few good tv shows starting or continuing (The Good Place, No Tomorrow, People Of Earth, Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency, Crazyhead, Frequency, Sweet Vicious, Lucifer) among the almost overwhelming mass of mediocre and just plain bad, and my wife finally dumped her too stressful job for an altogether pleasanter one.

But the main reason for this blog is to look at what I’ve been up to this year, in terms of writing anyway.

I have had no books published in 2016. This is a depressing but true statistic. However, this does not mean I’ve been doing nothing.

My short stories Assassin On The Seventy-Fourth Floor (Crimson Streets), The Light Ship (Electric Spec) and Young At Heart (reprint in Red Fez) made an appearance, and two more (Castle Ruins and The Great Prophecy) have been accepted but not yet released. I also had a story, Locusts – The Return, included in a special tribute book for Guy N Smith (Hell Of A Guy) which is not on general sale. Permission has been given for the story to appear elsewhere, but I haven’t decided whether I want to do that just yet.

I wrote a novelette (Vampire Worms), a novel (Eyes Of The Raven) and am currently finishing off the final draft of another novel that still doesn’t have a title! And as soon as this draft is done, I’m finally starting on the third and final novel in The Szuiltan Trilogy, The Offspring.

In terms of works that are out there waiting for responses, I have three short stories, a novelette, a novella, and two novels. This is not a lot compared to some writers, but it’s pretty good for me.

The other thing I’ve done in writing is sign up (again) to Wattpad, and this time I’m determined to make use of it. There are already several short stories, the whole of The Ant Man, and samples of currently unpublished work up there. My main project on it is to, gradually, put the whole of my science fiction thriller novel A World Of Assassins on there. Everything is free to read, and it seems a good place to spread the word 🙂

As far as my other creative outlets are concerned…

The 1850 Project (the collaboration between my son and me) is far from dead, it’s just resting. Mainly because our home studio (or Jonathan’s bedroom as it’s sometimes known) is in complete disarray, and we can’t afford the studio time we would need in our regular place (Whitby Studios) or anywhere else at the moment.

Art. It’s a very long time since I attempted any serious drawing or painting, but my wife was determined to get me to paint something for her. It’s taken her a long time, but she finally won, and I have taken up the brush and the acrylics again, after many years, to produce the painting you see below, which she seems to like (thankfully). I suspect that, now that I’ve started, I will probably continue in 2017. It was fun and quite relaxing to do.


That’s about it. I won’t be sorry to see 2016 go, and can only hope that 2017 will be a better year for all of us. The one thing I can promise is that I’ll continue to write, successfully or otherwise. I hope some of you will continue to read, too.

Thank you for reading.

The start of the story

Given my current struggle to write anything (not helped by too much pain medication, although the anti-emetic is working at least) I’ve been looking over various Works In Progress hoping for inspiration, or at least that urge to write which is sadly missing at the moment. Not sure I’ve succeeded in that, but it did make me think about the start of stories. I’m aware that I have a certain “style” I gravitate to for the opening chapter/prologue/whatever and that gets me worrying about whether they are all too similar… but then, I’m a worrier, particularly when things aren’t going particularly well for me. Everything makes me worry. Solution? Stick some of them on here and see if anyone has any comments about them. So that’s what I’m doing.

Bear in mind two of these are still early drafts so I’m not claiming great writing, but they should give you an idea of how each tale begins and you can maybe tell me if any of them make you want to read more. In other words, do they work at all.

Also, why not take a look at the openings of books you love and try and work out why they work. What grabbed you and made you want to read? In my own opinion, two of the best writers of opening chapters are Graham Masterton and the much missed Richard Laymon. They, at their best, have the ability to pull me in and keep me reading.

Enough waffle. Here are my three openings (rough as some may be).

The images are all copyright Steve Upham of Screaming Dreams


REBORN (30,000 words, complete and possible first in a series of novellas)

The pain he felt as he lay dying in the gutter, aged 27, the victim of a random, frenzied knife attack, could not compare to the agony he felt four years later when he was reborn.

The stretching of withered muscles, the aching of bones, burned hot pain throughout his body. Dry facial muscles forced his mouth open in a silent scream as thoughts and images, a bastardised, corrupt version of life, streamed through his mind. Synapses sparked to life, pushing signals between lethargic neurons. He was not sure who or what he was, but there was a consciousness stirring within his brain. Not quite alive, but no longer dead.

He heard voices, sibilant, sinuous.

It is coming. Soon. The time for you to rise.

He felt no fear, nor even curiosity, just awareness, a strong sense of anticipation and, most of all, hunger.


When the end came for most of humanity, John Roundtree was standing quietly at the bottom of his garden, listening to the early evening birdsong and the soft bubbling of the brook just two hundred yards beyond the wire fence.

As a child he had played there, leaping the great chasm from bank to bank that he could now almost step across, playing the war games with his friends that would one day become his career. The brook had always been there, and the small matter of a three-hundred home housing estate constructed nearby was not enough to disturb its shallow path through the fields.

“You’ve got that mysterious look on your face again,” said Chris Thomas, stepping out of his house next door and handing John a cup of coffee across the knee-high picket fence that separated their gardens. “Childhood memories?”

John nodded and took a sip.

Chris had known John’s parents, watched John grow up, leave to join the army and, after his mother’s death, return home to care for his father.

“I was surprised you stayed on after the old man passed. Thought you’d be back on your travels again.”

John glanced at his neighbour. Somewhere between his own age of 34 and his father’s, Chris Thomas had succeeded in staying friends with both generations, carefully avoiding the frequent loud and vitriolic arguments between the two.

“Got to settle sometime. When I came back I was a mess.”

He turned back to the field and Chris could see the moist glint of tears in his eyes. Things had happened over in Afghanistan and Iraq, but he had never spoken of them in any detail. He had been a loud, lively, cheerful youth when he signed up, but he came back a quiet, introspective man.

“I didn’t mean to bring back bad memories John, I was just worried.”

John managed a smile.

“I know. This is my home. Doesn’t matter what happened elsewhere. This is my home now.”

“Dinner’s ready!”

The shout startled them both and they turned as Chris’s wife stepped out onto the garden path.

“Oh, hi John,” she said, smiling. “Didn’t know you were there. If you’re hungry, there’s enough here for an extra mouth. Annie’s always watching what she eats so there’s plenty to go round.”

“I’m okay thanks. Got some things cooking.”

“Fair enough, but you know you’re always welcome. Chris? You coming in soon?”

“In a moment. I’ll just finish this cup of coffee and be right in.”

They raised their cups and drank, looking back out over the fields, listening to the brook and the birds.

Except there were no birds.

Everything but the soft bubble of the water had fallen silent.

“That’s odd,” said Chris.

Barbara, stepping further down the path, looked up to the sky.

“Probably means there’s a storm coming or something.”

Chris nodded. “Probably. Still, I’ve never known them to all stop singing like this. What about you John?”

John said nothing. Instincts, naturally sharp and sharpened even further by his Special Forces training, were telling him to run, hide. It confused him. There seemed no obvious threat.

“Told you there was a storm coming,” said Barbara. “Just look at that sky.”

John looked. Black clouds were rolling in, faster than any he had ever seen, bringing with them an eerie, heavy darkness. They filled the whole sky, from horizon to horizon, boiling and bubbling like thick, viscous oil. The air grew dense, tasting of iron and sulphur.

“I don’t know what’s going on, but I don’t think it’s a storm.” John looked back towards his house, judging the distance and how long it would take for him to run it. “Chris? Barbara? I really think we should all get back indoors, right away.”

The air grew suddenly thicker, heavier, overpowering. John looked to the sky again, struggling for breath. He thought he saw a break in the rolling blackness, two patches of deep red, glowing, but then they were swallowed by darkness once more.

They had looked like eyes.

John’s instincts screamed at him. He could no longer ignore them. Grabbing Chris around the shoulders, he pulled him to the ground, at the same time shouting “Barbara, get back in the house!”

She hesitated, watching, scared as Chris and John struggled. She was unsure what to do, whether to help her husband or go inside. But the sky was mesmerising, the way the clouds rolled and undulated like waves, and she chose to do nothing but stand and gaze upwards.

Across the world billions of others did the same.

“What… the… hell..” gasped Chris, struggling ineffectually against John’s solid restraint.

Lightning ripped the darkness from every section of the sky, a simultaneous discharge of electricity unlike anything ever witnessed before. It blinded those, like Barbara, who were looking upwards, burning holes in their retina, vitreous jelly boiling out of their sockets.

The blast of thunder shattered windows, split the ground, ripping open great wounds in the grass of the fields, the tarmac of the roads. John’s ears bled, the pressure of the sound wave almost unbearable. The rock deep in the earth vibrated, the low moan of a dissonant harmonic rising as the percussive blast subsided.

More lightning, a matrix of blinding light and jagged bolts, brief blossoms of flame sprouting for miles around, scarring the landscape with craters. Another explosion of thunder punching through walls, tearing the ground, pounding at the two men where they lay.

John covered Chris with his body as best he could. He kept his head down, his eyes closed. It was incoming fire, worse than any he had experienced in warfare, but the rules were the same. There was no point running. You just huddled down and hoped for the best.

As the last rumbles of thunder rolled away, a sudden, furious wind was sucked into the vacuum of silence from all directions. It tugged at John’s clothes, his hair. It span dust devils from the ground, stripped leaves from branches and whipped up the fires from the lightning strikes. Risking a glance towards Barbara, he saw her still staring at the sky with sightless eyes, a strange smile on her face, a face now red-raw with the wind-blown heat. He looked up to the sky and saw twisting tornados of pulsating colour, tentacles of lightning writhing across black clouds, and those glowing red patches that looked like eyes. They seemed to stare right at him.

He turned his face back to the ground as a further bombardment of lightning pummelled the earth, struck through the windows of houses, tore holes in roofs, killing people who thought they were safe inside, out of the storm.

The wind intensified, the thunder almost lost in the speeding-train-like noise. John and Chris screamed, battling to stay as flat to the ground as they could, the wind tugging at their bodies, the heat singeing their hair.

Barbara, lifted by the wind that swirled around her, spiralled almost gracefully into the air.

Struggling to maintain consciousness, John watched, helplessly, as the limp form of Chris’s wife slammed into the wall of their house. She hung for a grotesque moment before slipping to the ground, a trail of blood staining the brickwork. He barely heard Chris scream her name, the words torn away by the wind, lost in the howl of the elements, the blasts of lightning, the roar and rumble of thunder. And buried within that confusion of noise, so deep it was little more than a suggestion, other words twisted, rose, fell, on the edge of understanding, of reality, of belief…

Soon they will rise.

John had no time to wonder at their meaning. The air was full of debris, a flying stone clipping the back of his head, blood spatter whisked away in a fine spray.

His vision swam, fluid and unfocussed. Screeching metal twisted and tore nearby as the garden fence was ripped apart. As blackness began to engulf his thoughts he felt Chris trying to move, to crawl towards his wife. John held on tighter. He had seen enough death to recognise its look on a person’s face.

They were both thankfully unconscious by the time a wind-blown spade decapitated the already dead woman sprawled by the house wall.



Untitled Science Fiction Story (9,000 words so far)

Two men stood on the ramparts of the Napoleonic North Fort at Berry Head. Below them, in near darkness save for a few lights along the quayside, sat the Devon town of Brixham. The men shivered in a cold breeze coming from the sea, both looking warily in the direction of the old Guard Room, turned Visitor Centre and Cafe. Their view of the building was blocked by the protruding dome of an impossibly smooth, metallic looking meteorite, bulging upwards from where it had burrowed upon landing.

One of the men reached a decision.

“Come on, Bill, let’s leave.”

“No,” said Bill, surprised by his colleague’s suggestion. “Mr Banks told us to keep watch, and that’s what we’re going to do.”

Mr Banks told us. I couldn’t care less what Mr Banks told us. This place is giving me the creeps. This is a job for the army, not us. That thing’s not natural.”

“If it was natural, Dennis,” said Bill, in the voice of one instructing a small child, “Mr Banks wouldn’t be interested in it, would he? Tell me something I don’t know.”

Dennis Inchmoor grunted his dissatisfaction. He tried to pull an ill-fitting overcoat closed over a stomach that was beginning to suggest a paunch, but the buttons wouldn’t reach. At twenty-eight, he thought he should be leading a better life.

“You want to know something that pisses me off, Bill?”

Bill Traynor, two years older than Dennis, but beginning to feel the gap was much wider, managed a small smile that tugged reluctantly at one corner of his mouth. “Do I have a choice?”

“Our boss, and others like him, get more money than they’re worth, while the real workhorses of the Civil Service, people like you and me, struggle to maintain a basic lifestyle.” Dennis tugged angrily at his overcoat. “See this? It’s a hand-me-down from some dead uncle or other. It doesn’t fit properly, and it smells of old people. But it’s the only one I’ve got. I can’t afford to buy a new one!”

“That’s why we do as we’re told and push for promotion,” said Bill. “I’ve no intention of staying in the lower echelons any longer than necessary. What about you?”

Dennis ignored him, turning his back to a sudden gust of bitter wind that carried the spray of the waves with it. Bill, protected by a snug fitting raincoat and woolly hat, withstood the gust face on, tasting salt in the drops that peppered his face.

“But look at it, Bill,” said Dennis, needing more than the increasing cold to stop him talking. “How come there’s no major damage around here? How come there’s only the hole the thing is in, and even that doesn’t look like a meteor crater, more like a… well, a hole.”

“And your point, Mr meteor-expert?”

“It’s like it didn’t smash into the Earth. More like it landed.”

“And next there’ll be little green men climbing out of it. Make some sense will you? Now, just be quiet and do your job.”

“Bill, this isn’t our job! We’re Civil Servants for Christ’s sake. I told you. This is a job for the army.”

The sea breeze quickened again and the two men hunched their shoulders against it. Bill checked his watch. 3:30am.

“Shouldn’t be too long before the sun comes up,” he said. “It’ll get a bit warmer then.”

He was glad when Dennis turned sulkily away, for the moment out of arguments. A short drive away, just outside Paignton, Bill’s wife would be asleep beneath a thick duvet. In a little over an hour’s time, the central heating would click on and begin to warm the house. By the time Erica woke up, he hoped to be sitting in the kitchen nursing a hot cup of coffee. He didn’t need the griping from Dennis. He just needed the next shift to arrive so he could go home.

A sudden bright light, reflected back from the overhead clouds, span both men towards the meteorite. The dome glowed, first white, then green, red, back to white. An increasingly rapid pattern of lights bursting from the seamless surface.

“What the…?”

“I told you, Bill,” said Dennis, more than a trace of panic shaking his voice. “I told you! Let’s get out of here.”

But Bill was already walking towards the meteorite, mesmerised by the light show. Dennis watched him go, unable to conjour the courage to move after him, to drag him back, away from the alien mechanism.

The lights dimmed as suddenly as they had burst into brilliance. Bill stopped walking, but continued to stare blankly ahead.

A rectangular section of the dome slid open, forming a tall and wide doorway where there had, previously, been no indication of one.

In the darkness within, something moved.



Untitled Horror Story (38,000 words so far)

It was one of those rare mornings when Spencer Parkes woke at peace. Cautiously, he lifted his head, waiting for the quick, shadowy movements seen from the corner of his eye, the sibilant whispering filling the stale air of the small bedroom. There was nothing. Just still, silent darkness.

He thought of waking his wife, Swan, to share his sense of relief and happiness. But she had never heard the voices, or seen the shadows move. If he woke her, she would be angry at being disturbed more than an hour before the alarm was due. It would ruin his mood. It would ruin the stillness. He eased his head back onto the pillow and lay awake, enjoying the silence, the peace.

Slowly, dawn lit up the window through the thin curtains, and birdsong twittered and whistled through the trees of nearby Ottmor Wood. If only all mornings could be like this, he would not need the medication, the therapy. It might even make his life with Swan less combative.

If only.


Wyatt Road lay quiet and sleepy on the outskirts of Anbal, a small town on the Wirral Peninsula. The commuter traffic, from Liverpool to the north and Chester to the south, bypassed Anbal on the M53 motorway. What little diverted through the narrow main street of the town itself, passed the end of Wyatt Road without any thought of turning in. Wyatt Road was a dead-end. If you did not live there, and were not visiting, your only destination would be the turning circle, just before the wooden style leading to Ottmor Wood.

It was the quiet, more than anything, that had drawn Swanhild Parkes to number twenty when it came up for sale. A narrow mid-terraced house, it stood more or less equidistant between the end of the road and the wood. Built in the early 1930s, it had more recent additions of a concrete driveway at the front, newly installed plumbing and electrics, and a narrow, but long, well-groomed garden at the back. That was eleven years ago, when she had persuaded Spencer that this should be their first family home. Now, standing at the kitchen sink, staring at the overgrown lawn, the legs of upturned plastic chairs like skeletal limbs reaching up from the long grass, she felt nothing but despair.

“It’s not my fault I got made redundant,” shouted Spencer from somewhere behind her. She had almost forgotten they were mid-argument. The same argument they had had almost weekly for the last three years.

“No,” she said, agreeing. “But it is your fault that the grass hasn’t been cut for weeks.”

“You know it hurts my back.”

“We can’t afford to get someone in anymore,” she said, striving to be both truthful and understanding. “Since you can’t do it, I’ll have to do it at the weekend.”

“I’ll worry if you do that. I don’t want you to do that.”

His voice almost whined. She hated it when he whined.

“Yes, well, there’s not much choice, is there.” She turned from the sink to face her husband. “Now, I have to get to work.”

“I’ll move the car,” said Spencer. “May as well go to the shop while I’m out.”

He turned and began burrowing through the accumulated clutter under the stairs for his shoes.

Swanhild, Swan for short, wanted to be even more truthful. She wanted to tell her husband that he was a morbidly obese, out of work man in his early forties, and that it was no wonder his back and joints hurt, given the weight they were carrying. But she knew the redundancy had hurt him badly, destroyed his confidence, shoved him into depression. That the weight-gain was almost completely due to emotional eating since then, and that, despite what the Department of Work and Pensions said, Spencer Parkes was not currently fit for work, mentally or physically. She wanted to tell him these things, but she knew it would just deepen his depression and worsen an already terrible self-image. He needed to know she supported him, still loved him, despite all that had happened.

Spencer had found his shoes and, with some difficulty, put them on. Breathing heavily, he led the way out of the front door. Swan shrugged her one and only coat on, and followed.


Spencer reversed his old Peugeot 405 out of the narrow driveway and waited, the engine idling. He felt comfortable in the car, able to relax, away from whispered voices, away from Swan. Alone. It had been bought for the long drive to his last place of work, and held on to stubbornly after the redundancy. Big and impractical it might be, given how little driving he now did, but it was his. And it was the only thing that connected him to his old life. His purposeful, employed life. When he hadn’t felt quite so worthless. When he didn’t spend days in introspection and deepening depression. When he felt confident his wife loved him.

Swan’s Vauxhall Corsa reversed out, and the bright pink of the bodywork pulled a slight smile out of his frown. Even she agreed she bought it more for the colour than the car itself.

They waved to each other as she drove off, and Spencer waited until he saw her safely negotiate the junction at the end of the road before he put the Peugeot into gear and headed for the shops.

Just get the essentials and back home.

But did he really want to go home? There was nothing there but than an empty house, another long day of watching the clock ticking slowly by, the flash of movement from the corner of his eye, and the voices.

He wanted to tell Swan, he really did. But how do you tell your wife that you hear voices in the home you share? She already thought him fat and useless, blamed him for his depression and for failing to get another job. To admit to hearing voices and seeing things would finally convince her he was completely insane. She would probably leave. He couldn’t risk that.

Only two other people knew about the voices and the shadows: his local GP, Doctor Banks, and his one and only friend, Steve Newman. The only two people he had told differed in their reactions.

“It’s not that unusual,” Doctor Banks had said. “Particularly in someone clinically depressed like yourself.”

“But what do the voices mean?” said Spencer. “Why are they mostly unintelligible? Shouldn’t they be sending me messages from God, or telling me to kill the supporters of gay marriage or something?”

Doctor Banks smiled. If there was one thing that Spencer hadn’t lost, despite his serious depression, it was a sense of humour.

“The mind is a complex thing,” he said. “It can push bad and unpleasant thoughts aside if it doesn’t want to deal with them. It sidelines them, and they become a different part of you.”

“You mean like another person in my head?”

“Not quite, but another aspect of you, certainly.” Doctor Banks removed his narrow framed glasses and held them in his right hand, twisting them back and forth as he spoke. “These are things you don’t want to have to cope with just now, so they’re pushed into the background. And mostly, that’s where they stay. But every now and then, they push back, forcing themselves forward, and that’s where the voices are coming from.”

“So it’s all in my mind,” said Spencer. “Does this mean I’m psychotic or something?”

Doctor Banks shook his head. “No, it’s not any kind of psychosis. It’s termed dissociated. Like I say, it’s quite common among those suffering from depression.”

Steve, on the other hand, saw things slightly differently.

“So, you hear voices. Are they always in your head, or sometimes from outside?”

They had been sitting in their local Sainsburys cafe, meeting up during Steve’s lunch break from his nearby office job, and before Spencer went shopping. Talking with Steve boosted Spencer’s self-confidence enough to make it round the aisles without panicking.

“Sometimes in my head, sometimes not,” said Spencer, keeping his voice low. He was sure some of the old people at neighbouring tables were listening.

“I don’t reckon it’s anything to do with depression,” said Steve, casually dismissing what Spencer had told him about the Doctor’s opinion. “I think it’s a lot simpler than all that stuff.”

“Oh yes?” said Spencer, doubtfully. As a general rule he sided with doctors over laymen. But he always had time for Steve’s thoughts on matters, however outrageous they might turn out to be. “And so what do you think it is?”

“Simple.” Steve leaned closer, lowering his voice to a whisper. “Your house is haunted.”


Spencer managed to delay returning to the house for just over an hour, driving round, listening to the inane presenters on the equally inane radio shows. But he could not put if off forever. There were things he should be doing in the house.

He knew that Swan was right when she accused him of not doing enough. But most times, the low moods and aching joints were just too much to handle, and certainly too much to allow for housework. On the other hand, he sometimes worried that it was all just an excuse for laziness, doubting that he was even being honest with himself. Today, he knew he did not want to do housework. His back, and his knees in particular, were hurting, and he felt exhausted, even though he had, so far, done nothing. Nevertheless, in an attempt to make Swan happy when she came home from work, he was determined to try.

I need to start pushing myself, he thought. It’s only fair on Swan. She’s out earning the money. I have to do something here in the house so she knows I’m trying to help.

If fear of the voices was a factor, it was one he kept deliberately in the background. Maybe, for once, if he didn’t think about them, they might not be there. The quiet morning might extend into a quiet day.

Everything looked fine as he stopped in the driveway and climbed out of the car, something that was becoming increasingly difficult and painful as time went by. Even as he entered the house itself, the atmosphere was peaceful, totally lacking in the low susurration of voices he dreaded. On days like this, he could almost convince himself that he imagined they ever existed at all.

What did exist, however, was a musty, unclean smell. The smell of unwashed clothes and dusty furniture. Of unvacuumed carpets. A smell that reminded him of old people, living on their own with no family to help. Old people who did not wash, could not clean and wore the same clothes they had worn for the last who-knew-how-many days. It was not a smell that should exist in a house occupied by a couple in their forties. It was a smell that said no one cleaned. And that no one was him.

“Okay,” he said, hanging his one-and-only fleece up under the stairs. “First job of the day decided. Get rid of the smell.”

He was an hour into it, wiping down the kitchen work-tops and almost ready to vacuum the front room carpet, when the first whispering slithered into the still musty air.

He froze, cleaning-spray bottle raised in one hand, the other grasping a wet paper-towel, mid-wipe. The usual, sensible list ran quickly through his mind: plumbing; someone walking by outside; a nearby radio; the wind, even though there was none that day. He considered them all and discarded them. Neither was it coming from within his head. It was a voice, and the source was somewhere in the house.

He was long past the point of running from this thing. Frightened, yes, but not enough to run. As scary as they were, they had never hurt him. The voices in the house were always soft, on the edge of hearing, and always unintelligible. The movements were quick but nonthreatening, and never anywhere but his peripheral vision. If he had to give a name to his feelings, when that first voice hissed by, it would be disappointment. Disappointment that a day that had started whisper-free had become like every other day.

The voice continued, a diatribe of unknown words, and Spencer wondered briefly where this particular one was coming from. The corner of some room? Behind a half-open door? The attic? Beneath the suspended flooring? From where he stood, it came from the hallway, and he glanced quickly around the kitchen door to see, with some relief, what he had expected. Nothing.

But the voice continued. Just the one. That, at least, was something to be grateful for.

He had restarted cleaning, choosing to ignore the interruption, when he heard the first intelligible thing ever to come from the voices in the house. It froze his heart.


There could be no mistaking the sound of his wife’s name, dropped into the middle of the usual nonsense sounds.

He stood still. He listened. It came again.


The voice stopped, suddenly and completely. No echo or reverberation of sound. Just his wife’s name one more time and then silence.

He put down the cleaning-spray and the tissue, and hurried out into the hall. Nothing. He stepped into the front room. It was quiet and empty. Struggling up the stairs gave out no other clues. He didn’t know what he was looking for, but he wanted some explanation for hearing his wife’s name. He felt the same as he had the very first time he’d heard the voices. Frightened, confused and sick.

He was still upstairs in the bedroom when the voice began again, from downstairs. It repeated one word, over and over.

Swanhild. Swanhild. Swanhild.”

Other voices joined it, a rising mass of eerie susurration, all repeating his wife’s name, none of them in unison.

Moving as quickly as he could, almost in tears from a sense of helplessness, a feeling that he was somehow failing his wife, he went back down into the hallway. The hissing, serpent-like voices surrounded him. It was no longer a case of where they came from. They came from everywhere, even from inside his own head. Repeated and repeated, battering him unceasingly, until the name became an almost unrecognisable collection of sounds. He pressed his hands to his ears. His mouth opened, wanting to shout, to tell them all to go away, but no sound emerged. Tears were squeezed from tightly shut eyes.

Perhaps I really am insane.

The voices stopped, with just as much suddenness as the one voice had earlier.

The silence had a sound of its own. A background hum of nothingness.

He opened his eyes. There was movement in the corners, shadows shifting and darting. It seemed somehow more frantic than usual. And then, not on the periphery but directly in front of him, an intense, Stygian blackness bled outward from the wall. It coalesced, grew, all but blocking the kitchen door from his sight. It radiated emptiness. A hole in the air before him.

Eyes snapped open in its depths. Veined and hooded, with cornea as black as the void they floated in.

Terror gripped Spencer’s heart, and he ran, puffing and panting, from the house.


Well, that’s it. Three openings to three new works, two unfinished. Interest from any publishers out there is more than welcome… Reborn is currently sitting with someone but has no publication date set, but if anyone likes the look of either of the two Works In Progress, let me know. With that fantasy aside, all comments welcome, but if you’re going to criticise, make it constructive please. Thank you.

Horror Collection out now for Kindle


For the first time, I have decided to put my two full length horror novels, Welcome Home and Raised In Evil, together into one volume – my Horror Collection. Currently this volume is only available for the kindle and is competitively priced at under $3 (under £2).

The amazing cover artwork is by Steve Upham of Screaming Dreams

Quotes from Amazon reviews of Welcome Home

“You are introduced to 2 serial killers, a gang of teenagers, a randy policeman and a hit man!
How these brilliant, deep characters all come together in one amazing kill fest is just genius.”

” I can honestly say that until almost the end I had no idea the story would end the way it did. Once I started the book I could not put it down.”

“The part of the serial killer was so well written and graphic I was sure the author was a serial killer writing about his past murders.”

Quotes from Amazon reviews of Raised In Evil

“As the horror marches forth no-one is safe and there are some serious plot twists and some subtle humour moments which only serve to calm your nerves again before the next twang of hell.”

“I found Raised in Evil to be profoundly disturbing. I normally pride myself in being able to finish a full length novel in a matter of hours, however I constantly found myself having to take a break from this story because of its intensity. This is not a bad thing at all. This is a testament to how well Neil Davies can can reach the mind and, yes even the nerves of his readers.”

“Neil Davies has written a brilliant story, told it well and kept me entertained.”

Horror Collection: Two Complete Novels is available now from Amazon. Click the links below.

Amazon UK

Amazon US

Unpublished/Work In Progress Opening Lines

Following on from the last post, I’ve decided to list the opening lines (well, opening sentence really) of novellas/novels that are either finished and awaiting publication or are Works In Progress. Given their nature, both the opening sentence and titles are subject to change (particularly with the WIP). Question is, have my opening sentences improved? In no particular order…

“The pain he felt as he lay dying in the gutter, aged 27, the victim of a random, frenzied knife attack, could not compare to the agony he felt four years later when he was reanimated.”

“Earth Controller, he liked the sound of it.”
Liberation Of Worlds (Book Two in The Szuiltan Trilogy)

“She sat on the headstone, claws flexing, wings furled, as she had sat for almost four centuries.”
The Village Witch

“Six minutes before he died, Dr Lau Ka Ting knew they had killed him.”
The Wizards Of Yradion